divergent pain

The problem with a mark like the one I got is that I can't complain too much because the mark is strong in relative terms yet it makes me direct anger at myself for failing.

I hope I won't kill myself. My academic performance is backsliding (I might not even manage an 85 average this term with 41 points) and I'm burdened by CCAs and all.

I don't know where to go from here.

Continuing this tomorrow.
jk.