Wednesday, February 18, 2009

You Are

You Are // Mark Roach

You are holy, You are faithful,
You are Saviour, You are friend,
You are all I'll ever need, Lord you are -
You are every question's answer,
You are every reason why,
You are moving, You are still, Lord you are -

You are the Lord on high,
And You are the way, the truth, the life
You are the Word made flesh,
You are the bright morning star, Lord you are -

You are Glory, Hallelujah -
You are hope of peace on earth
You are Alpha and Omega... You are -
You are comfort, You are refuge
You are love personified,
You are kindness and compassion... Lord You are -

You are my God and my King
You are the words that I sing
You are the reason I make this offering -

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Beautiful song. I like the chord progressions and all, but the words do serve as a good reminder of what and who God is, or at least to some extent, should be to us. Not too sure how this came to mind, but I felt I should post about it. I particularly like the bridge (rendered here as the last 3 lines), both musically as well as lyrically.

jk.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

crossing over

There's someone out there who's just crossed some form of a boundary of his life. Upon reading this, I think he'll know that I'm referring to him; some of those closer to me would probably know as well.

Thanks for being a friend, especially through the tough times. I know I haven't been the best friend that I could have been... thanks for just looking out for me, even though there are times where I'm quite sure I don't really "deserve" it. (:

jk.

Monday, February 09, 2009

Riverside View

There've been a few occasions where I sat with a friend, and we just sat back and talked while a buzz of events ran around or by us. I had this unusual feeling thrice in the recent time period; twice in the SAC, sitting and just talking about a variety of issues and watching everything else around rush by in a busy, blurred semi-montage of images. The other time was slightly further back and slightly hazier in my memory; I remeber sitting on a bench by the Astro-turf, watching the school's cricket team practicing or something, and just talking about some variety of issues, as mentioned earlier.

Even before I studied Siddhartha and The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn for English A1, the concept of rivers has somewhat intrigued me. Thinking back to Secondary 4 Geog, linear population distribution patterns typically occur along roads or rivers, because these provide a means of communication. While it is true that travel along roads may be more expedient in that travelling along rivers often requires the construction of structures that can float; and for that matter water resistance often exceeds friction (this is dependent on surface areas, actually), rivers have their own practical applications as a source of (hopefully clean) water, as a supply of various recreational activities (kayaking anyone? or fishing or swimming, and stuff); they also make the environment nice to look at (as long as it's not too muddy, at least from my point of view). Rivers can also be used as a supply of hydro-electric power, which is nice as it's clean, little CO2 is produced, and renewable.

I remember hearing Diverse System's remix of Riverside View from Phantasmagoria of Flower View. It's essentially an acoustic guitar rendition; indeed, as I would agree with someone's comment on the song, "I can imagine sitting by the river and watching the boats go by."

When I went to New Zealand in Sec 2 (I think?), a particularly memorable experience at some point in the holiday was simply sitting by a river; it was somewhere in its middle or lower course in that the flow velocity was high and there weren't really big foamy splashes that would be more characteristic of the upper-course; for that matter if I remember my Geog correctly a river in its upper course typically is loaded with stones and the like; but that river had hardly any debris of a significant size. This probably means that much of the sediment had been worn down through hydraulic action and other erosionary processes into small particles, possibly some in solution with others in suspension and/or undergone deposition.

For me at least, rivers seem to symbolise some degree of fluidity and adaptability; they can erode through the path of least resistance in a floodplain (if i recall correctly! not sure), they can help farmers out by depositing fertile silt in floodplains. More relevant, rivers in areas where I usually view them (i.e. middle or lower course) typically flow quite fast. This high flow rate inevitably makes me think of the word "flux"; sitting by the river is relatively static, and for myself can be taken to be symbolic of watching by as changes go on; not to be completely outmoded by them, but more to be aware of them and to gain a broader perspective on what's been going on. This includes reflection as well; watching the things which you dropped when moving through the river flow away from your sight into obscurity; not just mourning their loss, though that's one thing you can do, but more looking back, and possibly figuring out how to avoid losing more items as you keep going after taking the break of watching the river.

Friday, February 06, 2009

Resolvable

There are two major conflicts that seem to underscore most of the difficulties I personally find myself to be experiencing - namely, the conflict between positivity and negativity, and the conflict between productive relaxation and indolent slacking. Whether a duality exists between the two or not is another issue; but as far as my experiences go, it seems both dualities exist, and they are also pragmatic to the discussion of said experiences (pragmatist theory of truth).

The things I write can be pretty unusual when my mind's out of place, like now.

Huck the duck and Finn the fish was an awesome video for Econs... Guess my own ordering of videos was pretty close to that of the judges.

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A few days ago, I thought of some kind of a list - "People whom I really need to talk to more". I wonder what criteria I might have subconsciously used at that time; looking at it now, the list is rather short (less than 10). I wonder what makes me think I really need to talk to a person more, though. I can say that in at least two of the cases, it's a matter of having some kind of special respect for the person; in one or two others, it's because I used to talk to them more a while ago but now am drifting quite a bit from them, and in some others, it's because I guess I just want to get to know them better? ...

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I'm getting back academic feedback, and hopefully things will stay this way - I'm very relieved my English written commentary turned an 18; I was concerned that after not writing commentaries for several months my standards would drop, especially after much negative feedback about World Lit (which is right now hopefully resolving itself). I felt awkward when writing the actual commentary itself, unsure about how to balance general ideas I saw with precise, close reading. Econs essay hit a 9, very good; apparently I lost the 1 point for real-world examples. I haven't got anything back for math; the one comp science worksheet got a rather mechanical 20, and the physics IAs have been rather shaky since Simple Pendulum came back. I messed up electrostatic attraction due to bad choice of distances. I think Party Balloon's okay; Muffin Cup, on the other hand, seems really tough. TOK and EE feedback has been generally positive so I guess that's a good thing.

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jk.

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Domino Effect

Multiply by several tables, (most of them had more interesting or complex designs, I think).

Most enjoyable prac I've had so far, I'd think. Probably, the IA was thrown into a far corner of our minds as we built the domino structures and destroyed them too.

jk.

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

On Intuition and Mathematics

beta. alpha. gamma... dream.
run. away, against the wind.
and sigma f(core) = 0.

i think of drifting ships, in -
john clare's "sea of waking dreams".
waves, amplitudes, frequencies.
three dimensional topographical space.
sine. cosine. varying amplitude.
a cos (bx + c), da/dx negative.
it's much easier to think of it as ripples.
perhaps.

i stare at the tangents among the ships;
in visible yet illusory figures they form.
rorschach in danmaku? or in invisible lines.
yet starkness of straight tangents fades into obscurity.
those four over there -
they don't form a parallelogram. the coords looked off.
coordinate geometry shows me so; off by 0.2%
maybe.

but still my eyes, my nerves;
they keep firing the parallelogram image.
in the world i see a mess of angles, of vectors -
in badminton, a masterful mesh of action and reaction.
in ddr, a firing of synapses and impulses all over.
somehow when i play, i don't see it. no rt 2, no pythagoras.
i'm probably bad cause i can't see the math.
possibly.

it was a while ago, i remember -
describing this unique game of logic as "Renyi's Obsession".
this queer yet beautiful synthesis of intuition, reason, emotion, language.
but is that all? must it stop at a game?
if it did, it'd be sad; the subject would be closed. a closed function. bare.
something tells me it's not though, it can be applied.
logic. rational proof? necessary all the time?
perhaps not. just flow -

beta. alpha. gamma... theta.
no longer struggling; flowing in motion.
but sigma f(core) = 0.