crossroads.

results will be out on friday. and as much as i initially wasn't too worried, i'm starting to get rather... concerned. won't say worried, it's not that bad.

honestly, i don't think i want to say too much, especially given the environment of people failing subjects, geog's highest being a 68, chemistry killing off a lot of peoples' hopes, weird mean subject grades and all.

i think my hls will be fine, but not my sls. hopefully i can pull some 7/7/7/5/6/7 for a 39 if i'm lucky. cause larts (which might be 4 or even 3) and chinese (HOPEFULLY at least 6) are quite screwed.

this brings me back to something i've wanted to write about for a while. what do we mean when we say we tried or did our best? because how do we know what our best is. many times, if we consider our best with specific relevance to the task it is often possible that we could have done more, and done better. but, at least for me, i don't think i will every really know.

a while back, i got a 59 out of 60 for a math test. can i say i did my best, knowing that i could have gotten a 60? the same applies for many things for me...

today was a reasonably good day. tiring, but good. i had a conversation about life with someone whom i didn't really expect to have one with. but it was good. it's nice, for me, to know that there are people out there who are concerned with their, and my, spiritual lives. for i find that many times in this fast-paced lifestyle i forget God, and QT sometimes becomes routine even.

but i was reminded of something. during chinese tuition tonight, i noticed there was an extra piece of foolscap paper in my ke ben for some reason. on the front side, it had some mathematical working on it, with a cubic graph and some calculus thing. then i flipped it over. i don't know why, but i saw that in the past i wrote almost randomly in the centre of the page (with underlining):

Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts
Let us not lift our souls to another

that's something for me to remember.

jk.