On Intuition and Mathematics

beta. alpha. gamma... dream.
run. away, against the wind.
and sigma f(core) = 0.

i think of drifting ships, in -
john clare's "sea of waking dreams".
waves, amplitudes, frequencies.
three dimensional topographical space.
sine. cosine. varying amplitude.
a cos (bx + c), da/dx negative.
it's much easier to think of it as ripples.
perhaps.

i stare at the tangents among the ships;
in visible yet illusory figures they form.
rorschach in danmaku? or in invisible lines.
yet starkness of straight tangents fades into obscurity.
those four over there -
they don't form a parallelogram. the coords looked off.
coordinate geometry shows me so; off by 0.2%
maybe.

but still my eyes, my nerves;
they keep firing the parallelogram image.
in the world i see a mess of angles, of vectors -
in badminton, a masterful mesh of action and reaction.
in ddr, a firing of synapses and impulses all over.
somehow when i play, i don't see it. no rt 2, no pythagoras.
i'm probably bad cause i can't see the math.
possibly.

it was a while ago, i remember -
describing this unique game of logic as "Renyi's Obsession".
this queer yet beautiful synthesis of intuition, reason, emotion, language.
but is that all? must it stop at a game?
if it did, it'd be sad; the subject would be closed. a closed function. bare.
something tells me it's not though, it can be applied.
logic. rational proof? necessary all the time?
perhaps not. just flow -

beta. alpha. gamma... theta.
no longer struggling; flowing in motion.
but sigma f(core) = 0.