Friday, October 12, 2007

Distanced Night

For completeness:

Computer Studies - careless mistake, lost 2 marks. otherwise should be OK. I don't think I can get 96, but scoring in the 90s is possible...
good/bad/ok/fail: 2/7/6/0

Now exams are over, but I've already sort of commented a bit on that in the last post, and I don't really feel like philosophically rambling now.

Many things to angst about - I think the title encapsulates most of what I have to say...

if you could just give me one more day
perhaps i could have made something different

jk

Monday, October 08, 2007

Seeming End

Today...
A Maths 2 - rumoured to be hard, but it seemed quite easy. having GDCs was very useful - i could very easily check differentiation and integration problems. hopefully i can get 98-ish for his paper. anyway, i'm a bit pissed cause yesterday night, in preparation for the exam i did a full mem clear. then i found out you only need to clear the ram. now i have to go and reinstall all the things that i actually use =(
good/bad/ok/fail: 2/6/6/0

Comp Studies tomorrow. It seems so fast; and while I can't say I'm happy that the exams started, I can't really say that I'm happy they're ending now. It's sort of a bittersweet conclusion.

Perhaps I agree with Graves in a way; looking at his poem Two Fusiliers, it seems to bring up the idea that out of adversity can come good things. I'm sure you'd agree that an exam is far less consequential than a war, and there is no real 'death' in an exam, I think the theme is still there. Through the exam period, I have realised many things that I might perhaps have taken for granted in the past - most of it transcending academics. I have participated in two different prayer groups, and in doing so have (hopefully) developed my relationships with the people in the groups, as well as, more importantly, (again, hopefully) developed my spiritual walk. It's indeed a nice feeling, when someone SMSes you the night before the exam and reminds me to remember to do my QT despite mugging or says that he's praying for me. It's really nice =)

Also, I haven't been overly stressed this exam. A possible reason is that the target of getting a prize tray on Founder's Day (yes, i know, how superficial) was achieved last year; I have noticed that indeed, I have slackened academically, but have applied my time to other pursuits, some of which I think bring me greater happiness, such as relearning piano, picking up guitar, training Java, writing essays, etc... the list goes on.

Anyway, now to mug the final paper. I just hope I can get... 96% or so tomorrow.

jk

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Partial Break

I haven't been able to write much recently; I've had mugging to do, unsettled, wandering thoughts and many random and non-random doubts.

I think this year, mugging withdrawal will be less harsh on me, partially because I haven't really got very much into the exam spirit this time round. I spent the afternoon playing Mountain of Faith, the 10th in the Touhou series. It's a danmaku or bullet hell game (as you may or may not know) where your character has a very small hit-box and has to weave through utter messes of bullets. One reason I like the Touhou series, other than the almost sadistic patterns, especially on the Lunatic difficulty and Extra Stage(s), is the BGM. From Mountain of Faith, the stage 4 theme - Fall of Fall ~ Autumnal Waterfall, stands out to me as having quality.

Recap of the papers. It was 0/0/2/0 after day 1.

Day 2
Core Maths 1
- There isn't really much I can say about this paper. It was fairly easy, especially the Number Patterns question (Gauss' theorem is seriously overused). I don't remember any overly difficult questions other than one nasty Coordinate Geometry one. In any case I remember getting the same answer as Isaac, Russell, Jarrel, Yifan and a few others, so it should be ok.
good/ok/bad/fail: 0/1/2/0

Physics 1 (MCQ) - Easy, though it was actually quite tricky. I checked through everything and only realised the sneaky direct current transformer question near the end. Hopefully I can do well; it seemed much easier than its Chem counterpart.
good/ok/bad/fail: 0/2/2/0

Physics 2 (OEQ) - Moderate-hard, I'd say. I lost about 5 or 6 marks already, because of the Moments question and the Electrostatics one. It still isn't too bad though.
good/ok/bad/fail: 0/3/2/0

Day 3
Language Arts 2 (Set Text)
- I picked question 1 pretty much the moment I saw it, and wrote quite crazily - and still couldn't finish. I'm a bit concerned that my essay might seem imbalanced, because I wrote a total of 9 sides leaving lines; less than 1 side of introduction, Dulce et Decorum Est till the end of side 6, Two Fusiliers from side 7 to side 9-ish and a conclusion to top it off.
good/ok/bad/fail: 0/3/3/0

Chemistry 1 (MCQ) - crazy. I wasn't sure of like 10 out of the 40 questions... studying LA may have caused me to neglect Chem to some extent. Shaun Ong and I went to the library and we met Luke there, and started studying... but we didn't realise we had to go until it was late. We went back to the BDSH and saw Ms Evelyn Tan opening the door just when we reached. o.o
good/ok/bad/fail: 0/3/4/0

Chemistry 2 (OEQ) - less crazy, just pressed for time. I had some trouble with the catalytic converter question (and B2 in general), but fortunately, with 12 minutes for both B2 and B3, I worked out B3 in less than 5 minutes, leaving me enough time to write answers for those I was sure, and cursory answers for those I wasn't so sure.
good/ok/bad/fail: 0/4/4/0

Day 4
Advanced Maths 1
- A little careless mistake caused me to drop three points; and I thought I would lose five more because I got shown someone's list of seven answers after the exam that were different; but I checked with the com when I went home and it was right. No Binomial Theorem or Matrices or RFT yet, so watch out for those in P2 tomorrow.
good/ok/bad/fail: 0/4/5/0

Geography - I remember Hsieh Wen described the mid year as a handwriting competition. This time, it seemed a bit less so, but still mostly a spamming paper. I did questions 1 and 3, though I considered doing 2 despite not studying Agriculture, because the questions were on Green Revolution and GMOs, which I sort-of knew; and furthermore, Q3 had a rather unusual case study to analyse.
good/ok/bad/fail: 0/5/5/0

Day 5
Core Maths 2
- Went quite smoothly; probably lost 1 mark on the cumulative frequency thingy (0 less than equal to x less than 10, I took it as 4.5 instead of 5 when calculating the average mean). Still, it went well...
good/ok/bad/fail: 1/5/5/0

Chinese B 1 (Set Text + Written Response) - Fun and easy. It sure gives an ego boost when you almost completely understand passages and answer MCQs on them. There were 1 or 2 I wasn't sure of, though; but hopefully I can pull a 36 / 40 for this paper...
good/ok/bad/fail: 1/6/5/0

Chinese B 2 (Compo) - BAD. It took me 20 min to choose a question, and I only wrote 2 sides (600-700ish words) and I'm not even sure if my plot is valid or not. -.-
good/ok/bad/fail: 1/6/6/0

On the whole, it's been a pretty standard performance I guess. not good, not overly bad.

i wonder if i've been living a lie
there's some hidden meaning in what you said
or maybe not. perhaps im just taking it too seriously.

jk

Monday, October 01, 2007

Day 1 -

I just think I did badly.

IHS: rawr. 20 mark question on conflict and governance which I didn't expect. i agreed with the statement to a small extent, and put forth well, not many points (that it is counterproductive - votes for services scheme, presentation as being distant and instilling a fear syndrome; productive - NMP/NCMP, GROs, and the economic, crisis and ethnic management policies put into place.)

the problem is there is some ambiguity in the question - 'wooing opposition voters' can mean 1 of 2 things - causing more people to vote for the PAP, or alternately inclining more people to vote for the PAP. Similarly, counter-productive can be either way - more votes, or more inclination.

i think i should have chosen to write on votes. because if you write on votes, you can bring in the fact that complaints do not transmit to votes ('whinging and winning'), and the depoliticisation of the electorate. since i wrote about inclination, there wasn't much to do really in the ways of challenging the question - i could only push in some bits on possible future speculation in the conclusion, supported by some evidence from the passage and my own knowledge.

i had no time anyway. bad time management.

good/ok/bad/die: 0/0/1/0

Lang Arts - unseen: I did the poem - Seamus Heaney's "Digging". then i went to read some online analyses on it, and i feel that though my analysis is ok, it's very superficial. i wrote something on the importance of discipline and toil for one to develop expertise - then when i read analyses online i found that most of them seem to be some kind of commentary about the relationship between the father and son. so, i'm quite screwed.

good/ok/bad/die: 0/0/2/0

and now i slept rather than mugged physics in the afternoon, which was what i was supposed to do. i'm gonna do quite badly this time round =(

thank you.
you might not know it, but your words really touched me somehow.

jk

Friday, September 28, 2007

Imperishable Night

I probably will be very sleepy tomorrow...

0000 - 0100 Physics Round II Part II
0100 - 0130 break, bathe
0130 - 0300 IHS Round I Part I
0300-- Sleep

4 - no, 3 - days left before the exams begin, and it's about time to take stock of how prepared I think I am for each paper, as at this moment.

Day 1
IHS: I have not done a thing. DIE. 0/10
Larts 1: It's Unseen. Not like I can prepare very much. I just need to reread my more recent commentaries, and remember to stick strongly by PEEP while explaining everything out nicely. 6/10

Day 2
Core Maths I: Should be okay... hopefully. I have no idea how Mr Leek will twist the topics, but it will be arguably interesting to see how he does so. 7/10
Physics I and II: I have gone through this subject 1.5 times, yet I still cannot retain most of the information. Ouch. 5/10

Day 3
Language Arts II: Poems, for I'm staying away from Four Continents. Seriously, the key poems I think are Owen's Dulce et Decorum est, Graves' Two Fusiliers, Tennyson's Brook and Bridges' Hill Pines. I will also look at a few others that deal with subversion - Thomas' Children's Song and Shakespeare's Shall I Compare Thee? - as well as some primarily craftsmanship based poems like Marvell's Coy Mistress, Rossetti's Sonnet and Clare's I Am.
I hope I can do Dulce and Mistress - I've analysed both of the poems in some detail before. 6/10
Chemistry: Gone through once, did quite a few practices, but still... shaky. 6/10

Day 4
A Math I: Hmm. I've done quite a bit of practice, churned out quite-good-but-not-uber-pro results. Haven't got anything above 95 for all the practices, so I'm still a bit rusty. 5/10
Geog: bah. I've only done Population, one topic out of the four that I plan to do. 2/10

Day 5
Core Math II: Similar to CM I. Just see. 7/10
Language B: I got egoboosted after doing the Chinese Practice Paper and pulling a 29.5/30 score for the Comprehensions. But I have no idea on how to do a skilful compo and written response yet, so it's high but not great yet. 8/10

Day 6
A Math II: See AM I. 5/10

Day 7
Computer Studies: My goodness. I have much revision to do, and must prepare for whatever long Essay Question there will be in the paper. I'm also going for 100, further complicating the matter of things... 4/10

There you have it. Now time to bathe and then back to IHS...

jk

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Intertwined Ropes

I don't know if I should love you or not.

Though you seem to be very nice to me
And it's indeed good that you've been a listening ear
-- very understanding, helpful, kind
I don't know.

Somehow I seem to hear overtones of insincerity
Perhaps it's a result of all the mugging;
mugging on both sides.
I'm trying not to point the finger at you
But I somehow just think something is wrong.
seriously.

jk

Monday, September 24, 2007

mugging season

to irs

it's mugging season!
that time of year
where some students start revising
others take target at existing papers
and angst when they pull 82.13755

that time of year
when some heap on the pressure
others tell us to relax gently
and still exude some mystic aura

that time of year
when we read about glorification
others condemning the same subject in war
and in nature, in algebra, in itself

that time of year
when some people cry a tear or two
others offering comforting words
and perhaps veil their own stress

ah, that time of year
when we all need some reassurance
so this poem goes out to you from me.

thanks.
jk

I was talking to Kevin, Shaun and Kyle to some extent with regard to the concept of mugging today. I have also discussed this issue with Hsieh Wen before.

"If I don't mug, I'll DIE." - Shaun Lee
Why do we mug?

For purposes of this discussion, I have delimited mugging as referring to intensive, thorough, large-scale and often mindless memorisation of facts, formulas and concepts in preparation for an upcoming exam. The term mugger here has been defined as referring to one who practices mugging to a greater extent than a large, arbitrary proportion of students in the class. Hence, by my definition one who studies consistently throughout the year, but does not carry out an arbitrarily disproportionate amount of revision in an arbitrary period leading up to the exams is not considered as a mugger.

Despite being often regarded as a mugger, I am actually against the concept of mugging, for several reasons.

Firstly, the practice of mugging often leads to large amounts of stress, which can lead to poorer retention; this poorer retention can stress the student more ad infinitum. This stems largely from personal experience, and possibly also from my dealings with some fellow muggers.

Secondly, mugging and the present examination system are based primarily on three things - memorisation of facts, application of concepts and application of critical thinking. I am fine with the second and third; but often, the memorisation of facts is needless once one passes the exam. For example, take a look at a Chem question I picked out of one of the practice papers:

If I react potassium(VI) dichromate with chlorine gas, what colour will it change to?
(A) green (B) orange (C) blue (D) colourless

I know the answer is A because of my mugging; then again, in the distant future (university, or if i get a job in which I need to know this), I can look the information up in the Internet easily - hence why would I need to know this? Perhaps an understanding of how redox reactions work is useful, but this factoid?

Thirdly, the present examination system, in my opinion, is not a very good reflection of a student's ability in the subject, especially with subjects where the practical work one does professionally in the future is likely to be very different. In my opinion, laboratory practicals are a step in the right direction; yet, a large percentage of marks are still awarded to and can be earned by a person who mindlessly mugs.

Finally, there are other factors that influence one's performance in an exam that have little to do with the subject itself - for example the presence of "exam smarts". Typical MCQ strategies come to mind, such as Seng Wei's Theorem of Cloze Passages for Chinese (choose the most complicated answer) or the principle of contradiction (if there are two diametrically opposite choices, the answer is probably one or the other). This actually ties in largely with the previous point about written examinations not being a very accurate reflection.

Now I have put forth all these points against mugging and the exam system, you might be wondering - if I bash mugging so much, why do I still engage in it? If I question the exam system so much, why do I still care to compete on it? Well, I shall now explain this...

Though I believe that the examination system is not a very good reflection of the student's ability to perform professionally, there appears to be a lack of a feasible alternative. Jarrel has suggested attachments - and though I think that these are significantly better in measuring a student's grasp of concepts and connections, it is s probably not feasible due to the sheer volume of students who are taking a certain subject at our level, as well as the liabilities the relevant companies might incur if they accepted hapless candidates who might cause trouble to the company.

Hence, seeing that the exam system is about the best feasible system I can conceive, I think it is more pragmatic to merely go with the flow and mug rather than oppose it; this seems to hint of "If you can't beat them, join them". Though there have been mentions about muggers merely showing a facade of knowledge and understanding, and this can be valid, I find that the sad reality is that this facade is important as it can affect where we go for our tertiary education, and in doing so possibly affect what others might think of us ("o.o he's an Oxford graduate. super pro."). Notice the repeated theme of appearance and reality here - we seem to create appearance for appearance, because not creating the appearances can make others believe that we are inferior to those who do.

It seems to remind me, to some extent, of the game of the prisoner's dilemma in game theory. This is based on three big assumptions and simplifications - that reality is better than appearance, appearance will outshine reality and that our realities and appearances are similar in level. We reach the Nash equilibrium of (appearance, appearance), for we are afraid that showing the reality might produce a poorer result to our competitor; and in doing so, we miss out on the globally optimal point of (reality, reality).

Hence, I guess it will be back to mugging for me.

jk