missing power

apparently i won the comp science academic award. wasn't expecting anything anyways. unfortunately couldn't compete with shaunlee, but i guess i was somewhat slacking off last year anyways -.-

i've always wondered if to some extent i'm a bit "different" from a lot of people. a while back, i watched a bunch of youtube videos on the game persona 3, and the "date sequences" with this character called elizabeth are something i can identify with to a small extent. of course, the imaginary character is far dramatised beyond myself; yet, there are also times where i do feel to some extent out of place.

i was doing a bit of studying on paddyclarke this afternoon, and while i guess it is true that i do not remember very much about my childhood prior to the point where i turned about 15-16 or so, quite a number of the experiences depicted by the narrator leave me in a sense of awkwardness and even distancing; i guess the studying is what made me think about this.

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the beginning of a new year (well, somewhat late typing this, but...). i remember discussing with a friend a few days ago about what had changed from yr 4 to yr 5, in a somewhat reflective way. now, looking forward, i can't foresee that many changes from yr 5 to yr 6, except hopefully i'll be able to return to my more hardworking yr 4 days, where studying for 2-3 hours straight after coming home from school, even if this is at like 5 to 6 pm, is not a problem. study habits and personalities are probably going to change somewhat for me...

another lesser change would be the loss of direct usage of a bridge between the two blocks; that said, i only need to cross to 6.8; the rest of my classes are on the pt 14 side of the block.

hls and econs better get 7; english 6 is tolerable but a 7 would be greatly desired as well. for some reason the econs 7 seems to keep eluding me, whether due to generally falling short of it (mid years) or a colossal mistake in one section of the paper (end years). hl 7s are pretty secure; english is problematic cause its way too inconsistent. honestly my average commentary is a 6. but i really want to get a 7... which happens rarely, once in a while.

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a random quote from class this morning.
"in this world, there are 3 kinds of genius.
the one who is very very smart, like jarrel seah,
the one who is very very hardworking, like shaun lee
and the one who is somewhat of both, like *points at me*"
- jonny

i feel good to be the 3rd type. cause i wont feel guilty for not working yet i wont deal too much with the sickening pressure of working too much! haha =) but better not be complacent either............

ive sort of felt this way quite a bit especially last year.

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on a side note,




argh. too much touhou. seriously... laugh at the bombs used 46, but a 1cc is still a 1cc. i think i finished 0/x where x is like 2 or so. so yeah... done using SakuyaA.

jk